As my Birthday was approaching this year I new I wanted to celebrate a little differently then I have in the past. Now, if you know me personally you know I am a true Leo and my birthday is a big deal! My past birthdays have been blowouts, horsback parties, surprise parties, many of my birthdays have been spent in exotic far off places,and all of them have involved me telling everyone I meet that day "Hey its my birthday celebrate me" playing the proud Lioness to a T.
Coming into my 35th trip around the moon and having gone through 22 weeks of pregnancy so far , my whole outlook on what my birthday meant to me shifted. I have spent 34 years celebrating me, as I rightly due of course, it is a miracle to be alive and well. Now that my role has shifted from just me to, there is another human inside me right now (so weird, cool amazing) , it somehow didn't feel right to celebrate me soley on my day or flash it around like I had done anything big on my actual birthday in 82.
What came keenly to my attention was what went down on August 3rd , 1982, my mother gave birth to me! At 4:28 am I came into this world with the cord wrapped twice around my throat and the caul or veil covering my face, I was blue as could be. My mother labored through the night au natural at her midwifes, to bring me into this world and here I am 35 years later about to birth my own baby.
Birthday , Day of Birth, the day our mothers labored, breathed deeply, maybe screamed, and if they had a natural birth felt pain to bring us here, they endured crazy bodily changes and sacrificed their bodies to create us for 9 months. I truly believe we have it backwards, we need to be honoring our mothers on our birthdays, after all if it wasnt for their undying love and sacrifice we would not be here.
I am so truly grateful and blessed to be here in this world, learning what its all about to have a grand human experience. I am alive and well because of the beautiful strong and powerful Cynthia Foster who let me occupy her body and who pushed me out into the world. I am honored to be going through the birth process myself, it is truly the most amazing experience I have ever had so far! I feel like I stepped into some sort of powerful womanhood I had no idea existed until now. Some day in early December I will give a new human a birthday and that is just the coolest thing and the most precious gift I could ever ask for.
I spent yesterday just as I wanted in quiet reflection, loving my body, calming my mind, and filling my spirit with gratitude for this miraculous journey we go on when we choose to step into motherhood and create life.
In conclusion remeber on your birthday how you got here and who it was who sacrificed out of love to bring you here. This my 35th year I dedicate to you Mother and I dedicate it to the babe I carry who his making me a Mother.