I have much to write, yet there are no complete sentences. I have started this post three times in the last 1 minute, nothing seemed perfect to give to you...
What is true for you right now? If you were to sit still for one minute what would be going on for you? After perhaps ten minutes when maybe you released from you head and traveled to your heart, what then are you sitting with?
Talking from you mind/thoughts rather than from your heart. This has been a huge issue for me lately. I watched a seemingly boring video the other day but could not take myself away from it, for 48 minutes I stayed hooked on what these two men were saying, they were speaking from the heart and I could not stray away from such openness. Today I started to watch a video on a topic I am very interested in but after 1 minute I walked away from it, I could not feel this persons words, it was their mind talking and my heart was not connected.
In western society we are taught to speak from our heads, gather the information make a pointed presentation and speak. Have you ever been to a talk where you can hear words but you feel no connection? Now, have you been to a talk where you feel the speakers energy, you believe every word they are saying, you feel every syllabel form every word that vibrates in your core? Have you yourself found yourself talking and realized your not even connected to what your saying? I am sure you have experienced the other half of that as well, when you are sharing a story or idea and its as if your have lost control and something higher is speaking through you?
I can always tell when a person is talking to me from their heart place, how? I feel them, If their coming at me from the habit of their mind I cannot feel them, there are no emotions to accompany their words. Speaking from the mind is great if your intention is to show how intelligent you are and quick witted, but that does nobody any good not even yourself because in the long run you will find emptiness.
Speaking from the heart you will only find a greater fullfillment. Speaking from the heart is simply speaking the truth, your truth. Speaking from the heart is not to outsmart, outplay, out maniplilate, or seek gain its simply wants to connect and share. Speaking from the heart does not mean the things you have to say others will like, but it doesn't matter its the truth and in the end whether the people around you or even you see it everyone gains.
Speaking from the heart is not the same as emotionally reacting so please don't confuse the two they are very different. A highly emotional re active person would benefit from meditation and in return find that most of those re actions come from the habit of their mind, not the heart.
In my own experience when I try and use all the knowledge in my confided brain to get my point across, it never works. First I find myself getting confused by the habits I've created over the years and therefore the lack of clarity in making my point is lost. In that also if I'm on my game and the words are coming quick and their "on point" I end up hurting or saying things that I don't even mean, leaving me with an emptiness. When I speak from the heart I gain so much, no matter what that truth is for me, nothing can harm me, I am in my truth I am in my higher self and I find I get a deeper connection with whoever is on the other side of my words. The heart never lies only the mind does. Speak from the heart and you will a neverending sense of peace and happiness. If you find that your heart is up against someone else's mind, stay with your heart, see how people respond to you, perhaps they will let you see their heart as well and what a gift to give.
If you found this triggering, I challenge you to read it again and when you come to a place that triggers you ask yourself "why does this trigger/upset me?" the first response will most likely be a habit from the mind, so go further down breathe into your heart and see what you find there ,now ask yourself again.
A Poem about Today
There she is Naked and Afraid
Scrubbed clean of all the flakiness the enveloped her.
Soft butter she has become, strewn of her hard exterior.
Grey Scales no more appear her rose petal glow is quite clear
She likes this feeling of shedding her scales and replacing them with petals
For there is something in a Rose, so soft and delicate but to hold one
takes such skill, one wrong unthoughtful grab and your finger is pricked.
To strip away those thorns you would no longer have a Rose.
Breathe with Me
My heart wraps around my brain and twists between my legs
My toes curl and my spine breathes as I melt into it
I am scared you are right
scared of never feeling this understood like I do when I;m with you
I dont have you, I dont need you although at times I feel like i do
I want you, I choose you.
I want to feel you body into mine
Your soft gaze fervently searches my face and I sing into my eyes as they stare back at you
I want to love you with every single beat of my heart
To let you blend into my spirit lifts me forth into the heavens and spreads me wide like the oceans covering the land.
When i am confused, scared, hurt, or angry beloved
with all your gentleness and kindness and love with mercy
Remind me to do one thing
Breathe with ME.
Her power spreads to all that pass by
People can feel her before they see her
They stop and stare, not sure what they are looking at....a girl, a goddess, a witch
all they know she has something they feel too and they want her to show them
They can tell when she is strong and even when she is weak.
Although, she lights up when feeling strong, she has yet to control the dying fire when she burns low.
Like the last rays of the sun in the sky after the dip beyond the horizon
she spreads that fire as far as the eye can see.They know she is special and she knows she has a gift, a calling to bring to each one of their lives.
I wrote these words at different points in my life but I hold them close to me. The last two days have been raining and thunderstorming, I AM LOVING IT! I like to take these days to re read some of my journal writings, reflecting on how far I have come or maybe realizing that not much has shifted and its time for some new action. These few writings I have shared(big breath) are ones that speak as huge reminders to me. They are about me and for me, to help me remember to slow down kiss the sky, dance with the rain, feel the thunder:)
In Gratitude Your Hannah