It has been about one month since my body has stepped foot in the mystical land of India. As with anything there is a transition period, and thank the divine for it! My head thinks back to when i first arrived here, feelings of excitement, and wonderment soon turned into feelings of lonliness and scared, now i find myself back in wonderment and a new sense of peace.
My being is settling into this place. Yes it is still hard because going to live in such a different place such as India is hard, but yay for me that I get to experience this when so many will not have the chance. No matter where you are or what your doing if you can take out the resistance to whatever is happening around you and remember that nothing happens to you, it happens through you, you can experience that state of wonderment and perhaps settle into peace.
I really love India it is my third trip here and each time it humbles me and wakes me up. I get to really notice the walls I throw up in order to "protect" myself. How sad that is for me, because I take all the wonderment out of my existance trying hard to protect myself from what? from a new way of thinking? a new world? a different way to eat or pray or even move? I often reflect back on life in my home country while im away,comparing and contrasting notes. In that relfection my body almost becomes ill. So many of us are so shutoff from the world and stay stuck in the same repetative mind sets that there is no adventure, there is nothing left to explore.We think we know everything and were stuck in the limiting belief that were right and the rest of the world is wrong. When in truth our souls want the same thing, we are all after the same thing. Yes, we have different history books telling a story about how we came to be but if you read closely and keep an open mind and explore all options and stay curious, you will find there is not much a difference in the message.
I have started to really study and be curious about why there are so many hindi gods and goddess...do you know? I wish I could explain better but my mind is just starting to expand on this topic so i will save it for a later time. What my thoughts can share with you is this, its beautiful. Religious beliefs will probably always remain a point of contention in the world, and thats sad. Learning about why there are so many Hindi Gods/Goddesess has really put into perspective to me how close minded so many of us are, we use our judgements to create stories about other cultures without first hand learning anything about them. In these judgements and stories we keep ourselves locked in the cage of limiting beliefs, in return taking away again that childhood wonderment of "oh wow thats so cool!"
This is not only true for religious beliefs but it happens everywhere! You might have read how to deal with a relationship in a book or took a friends advice, does that make it solid gold in your book? for the rest of your life will you try only that way? Is what we learn in school or teacher trainings the end all? I sure hope not. There is million different ways to open the fridge doo well maybe not a million but atleast two that ive tried that works:) Point being there is always a new way, there is not one way to do anything, but its up to us to stay curious and that place of wonderment so that we dont get stuck on point one and completly miss points 2-7. Even now how many of you are stuck on something I might have wrote a few sentences back?Maybe you it didnt make sense to you or maybe you didnt agree? Its okay but there is more and if you stay stuck on that one thing you will miss out on so much.
When your in that state of wonderment the world is with in your grasp and guess what your it , you are the entire universe so stay curious , its you, you seek.
This is a picture of my littlest sister Faith and my sudo little sister(her best friend) Megan. I believe they are holding two dead fish! Wonderment... seeing two dead fish and picking them up proud of what you found or curious about "wow a fish!" dead or not. Unconcerned about germs or whatever our adult minds tell us is gross, the smiles tell us all what we need to know.. Knowledge although is good dont let it hinder you from living a curious WONDERful life!